Wow, it’s been so long since I’ve typed anything. Sorry about that boys and girls [To my myspace readers].Life has been pretty simple for me right now, mostly school and stuff, caught up in that. I’m reading a book for school and it’s pretty awesome! It’s called On the Road by Jack Kerouac. Read it if you ever come along it! I’m half way through and going to finish it this Sunday I hope =]
Anyways! Topic for today: how people stress and worry about the future. Well worrying about the future in general. And my problem with getting upset even hearing the simplest thing.
I have a wonderful friend in my life and they’ve worked so hard to get where they are. He’s worked 5 years and is now in med school for the first year. He found out that profs and other people think this may not be “the right route for him.” He’s stressing out and I can understand that. Knowing you worked so hard and everything may just go down the drain hurts. I’ve tried so hard to convince him that what people say COULD be true but he can change it. The future is unpredictable and changing every second. As I type this, my future is changing for all I know.
My concern for everyone’s well being is that we worry too much about the future. I’m quite guilty of it; I’m constantly worrying about what if things don’t work out, what if I don’t get into photography, what if I don’t marry the man of my dreams and have the nuclear family I’ve always wanted, what if I lost the most important person in my life [more on that later]. To worry about the future is to live in fear of failure. We’re all human and we can be a very pessimistic bunch. I would like to think that we can all change but it’s easier said than done. It’s easy for a third person to come into your life and say “Hey, don’t be so negative, think about the positive.” But to actually be in the situation where it seems like everything is going down, it’s hard to dig yourself out of that. If you’re reading this, and nodding your head saying “Yeah, I can be pretty pessimistic” or “Yeah, I’m always trying to tell people to think more positively,” Tell yourself or your friend that to live life in the present because the future can change in a snap. The simplest decisions we make in life change our future and to worry about something that we don’t exactly have control over is silly to do. Admit it, we are all guilty of it. Don’t give up because things are hard. You know that you’ll feel better in the future to know that you’ve tried then just given up.
Live life in the present, not the future.
Success is not final, failure is not fatal, it is the courage to continue that counts.
Down to the itty gritty; my problems. Exit the blog now if you honestly don’t care. I’m in love with a man that’s dating another girl [Blogs from before mention this more often than I can imagine, if you want more itty gritty details, check back to my myspace]. We love each other very much and yet we’re both very upset because of this situation. I get upset from the mention of her name to seeing her picture. I get upset because I know the truth is this is his GIRLFRIEND and they can actually spend time together [even though she lives in another city, she can at least go visit him and live with him for a couple days, and I can’t.] Yes I’m jealous, very jealous in fact. It’s the truth that kills me. This girl is absolutely beautiful and probably a very charming girl. Of course being the “other girl” I can nit-pick at her bad and every girl can see “the bad” in another girl; it’s in our blood to be able to do that with no hesitation [SERIOUSLY]. I’m not going to sit here and say all the possible bad things about her because I don’t know her and even if I did, that behaviour is so low and I will not do that. It’s not me. I’m happy that he is with someone but upset because that someone isn’t me.
How did I let myself get into this situation and not just ditch him? “Allison, if he’s dating another girl, he can’t be THAT interested in you.”, “Allison, you’re a wonderful girl and there are plenty of other guys out there.” No one understands how wonderful this man is and what a great “relationship” we have. Yes it may not be official in words that we are dating but we don’t need that. I know he loves me and I know I love him and that’s all we really need to know. It doesn’t matter what other people think or say, we are happy to have each other. And we both feel that if this was to end, we’d both be very sad. It hurts to even think that this may end one day. Everything we talk about, what this could lead to, how happy we may be in the future with each other, it’s wonderful to hear it, and especially to hear him say things about “our” future. I’ve never been the girl to be in someone’s future plans and to hear that he wants me in his life is more than I could ask for.
This is why I can’t let this man go. He’s absolutely perfect. He’s so loving and caring. Best part is he’s real with his thoughts, what he has to say, and what he does say, they are all honest words. He didn’t lie to me about having a girlfriend, he doesn’t hide things from me and I respect that so much. He’s comfortable talking to me about anything. He knows me so well, that he could probably write a ten page report about me. We have so much in common it’s unbelievable and it kind of blows my mind. I really do think that he is the man for me and I see myself marrying him one day. I know it’s so silly to say that NOW but I can honestly say that and it’s how I feel.
Thanks.
-Allison
Anyways! Topic for today: how people stress and worry about the future. Well worrying about the future in general. And my problem with getting upset even hearing the simplest thing.
I have a wonderful friend in my life and they’ve worked so hard to get where they are. He’s worked 5 years and is now in med school for the first year. He found out that profs and other people think this may not be “the right route for him.” He’s stressing out and I can understand that. Knowing you worked so hard and everything may just go down the drain hurts. I’ve tried so hard to convince him that what people say COULD be true but he can change it. The future is unpredictable and changing every second. As I type this, my future is changing for all I know.
My concern for everyone’s well being is that we worry too much about the future. I’m quite guilty of it; I’m constantly worrying about what if things don’t work out, what if I don’t get into photography, what if I don’t marry the man of my dreams and have the nuclear family I’ve always wanted, what if I lost the most important person in my life [more on that later]. To worry about the future is to live in fear of failure. We’re all human and we can be a very pessimistic bunch. I would like to think that we can all change but it’s easier said than done. It’s easy for a third person to come into your life and say “Hey, don’t be so negative, think about the positive.” But to actually be in the situation where it seems like everything is going down, it’s hard to dig yourself out of that. If you’re reading this, and nodding your head saying “Yeah, I can be pretty pessimistic” or “Yeah, I’m always trying to tell people to think more positively,” Tell yourself or your friend that to live life in the present because the future can change in a snap. The simplest decisions we make in life change our future and to worry about something that we don’t exactly have control over is silly to do. Admit it, we are all guilty of it. Don’t give up because things are hard. You know that you’ll feel better in the future to know that you’ve tried then just given up.
Live life in the present, not the future.
Success is not final, failure is not fatal, it is the courage to continue that counts.
Down to the itty gritty; my problems. Exit the blog now if you honestly don’t care. I’m in love with a man that’s dating another girl [Blogs from before mention this more often than I can imagine, if you want more itty gritty details, check back to my myspace]. We love each other very much and yet we’re both very upset because of this situation. I get upset from the mention of her name to seeing her picture. I get upset because I know the truth is this is his GIRLFRIEND and they can actually spend time together [even though she lives in another city, she can at least go visit him and live with him for a couple days, and I can’t.] Yes I’m jealous, very jealous in fact. It’s the truth that kills me. This girl is absolutely beautiful and probably a very charming girl. Of course being the “other girl” I can nit-pick at her bad and every girl can see “the bad” in another girl; it’s in our blood to be able to do that with no hesitation [SERIOUSLY]. I’m not going to sit here and say all the possible bad things about her because I don’t know her and even if I did, that behaviour is so low and I will not do that. It’s not me. I’m happy that he is with someone but upset because that someone isn’t me.
How did I let myself get into this situation and not just ditch him? “Allison, if he’s dating another girl, he can’t be THAT interested in you.”, “Allison, you’re a wonderful girl and there are plenty of other guys out there.” No one understands how wonderful this man is and what a great “relationship” we have. Yes it may not be official in words that we are dating but we don’t need that. I know he loves me and I know I love him and that’s all we really need to know. It doesn’t matter what other people think or say, we are happy to have each other. And we both feel that if this was to end, we’d both be very sad. It hurts to even think that this may end one day. Everything we talk about, what this could lead to, how happy we may be in the future with each other, it’s wonderful to hear it, and especially to hear him say things about “our” future. I’ve never been the girl to be in someone’s future plans and to hear that he wants me in his life is more than I could ask for.
This is why I can’t let this man go. He’s absolutely perfect. He’s so loving and caring. Best part is he’s real with his thoughts, what he has to say, and what he does say, they are all honest words. He didn’t lie to me about having a girlfriend, he doesn’t hide things from me and I respect that so much. He’s comfortable talking to me about anything. He knows me so well, that he could probably write a ten page report about me. We have so much in common it’s unbelievable and it kind of blows my mind. I really do think that he is the man for me and I see myself marrying him one day. I know it’s so silly to say that NOW but I can honestly say that and it’s how I feel.
Thanks.
-Allison
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