Alright, so another month went by and I didn’t write a single blog because I started to tumblr. On tumblr, I don’t write about a lot of things other than just random events so here is a link to that – [http://thisisnotallisonwong.tumblr.com/] – I’ll also add it along the side of my blog.
Have you ever gotten into a deep conversation with a friend and at one point, they say something and you just have nothing to say to it or even about it? Yeah, it just happened to me and it escalated to something more and he is definitely not too happy about any of it at all. He was just pouring his heart out to me talking about things and how he feels and I asked him if I made him feel that way. He continues to talk and I’m reading along and it came to a point where I just don’t know what to say. He also said that he wanted to be like me. What do I say to that? Well I told him I was flattered but did I really want him to be like me? I don’t want to talk to someone like me to be honest. I talk to myself enough (no joke), and I just wanted him to be him. At one point I just gave up trying to get him to tell me more so I just stopped trying. He got angry and I feel bad but at the same time, I did nothing wrong. He kept apologizing and I finally flipped telling him to stop it because he did nothing wrong either. He took what I said (“I don’t know what to say to you sometimes”) as negative when I meant it sincerely because I really didn’t know what to say. He left after saying “joke all you want and forget we have problems, ugh, fuck you”.
What do you do in a situation like this? I gave up because I didn’t want to push him because he clearly didn’t want to talk about it anymore, and I didn’t want to say the wrong thing so I just told him to leave. I’m over it and I hope he just learns to be himself because that’s all I really want from him.
Thanks
-Allison
