Post No. 39 : The little things in life

It’s been a month since I graduated and life is definitely different.

For work, I’m now working from 2-4 times a week and I’m still thinking about a second job. I should probably start applying to some other places. I need to find more inspiration too and do more photography. I’ve spent a lot of money on things I probably shouldn’t and I should just start saving up money for more important things : camera gear… and just to save money for my future. Other than that, nothing isn’t really too new and exciting.

This blog is about the little things in my life now.

The other day, I was sitting in the bathroom waiting for my mom to finish brushing her teeth and stuff and noticed that her teeth brushing routine hasn’t changed in years; I could be in my room and hear someone brushing their teeth and I can tell if its my mom or dad. While doing so, I also thought about how I have grown up in this house and everything about this place is amazing. To think about all the little things I’ve done here is beyond me. I remember when I was little I would sleep in my parents room with my mom’s bed, my little bed, and my dad’s bed. I would also have my dad take me to bed and read or tell me a story and in the mornings I would call for him to bring me downstairs.  Or the years when my brother was in school and I would sneak out of bed around 9-10pm, sneak downstairs and tell my parents how I couldn’t sleep. The years when my cousin lived with us and I shared a room with her, which was for a good 5+ years. The years when I finally got my own room and then had to give it up for the much smaller room. Then when I finally got a key to the house and I would bring home friends for lunch. Or the time during the summer when Kelsie would walk over to my house and we would just hang out all day and night. Waving to my parents at the door as they leave for work was a routine thing I did. Now, it’s sitting there for breakfast with my parents and chatting, seeing them anytime they come home, chatting with them whenever I can. Sometimes I try to spend time with my brother and we just go out to do whatever.

My memories are the most precious things to me right now and I really do miss some of them. I miss my high school friends, I miss some of my old friends, I miss having a real routine, I miss spending time with my parents, and I miss Michael (a lot).

Time doesn’t wait for anyone, my father always says, and I need to make everyday worth it and cherish the little things in life and enjoying them.

Carpe Diem.

Thanks.

-Allison

Post No. 38 : The Possibilities

Way to not blog for a really long time, Allison! Gah. Okay, so I should definitely blog some because I got lots of things to talk about! Here it goes!

First off, since the summer has started, I feel as if I haven’t accomplished too much; doing some photography, working, hanging out with friends, spending too much money, you know, the usual stuff I do. But I feel as if things have changed a lot.

I’m going to make a list of things I want to talk about so I make sure I cover everything!

1.       Graduating from college

2.       Being done school and how weird it is

3.       Long boarding

4.       Video games

5.       Work

6.       Friends

7.       Vacation in January

8.       Job opportunities in other countries

9.       How life would be if I wasn’t living in Canada

10.   Mike Schaerer

I finally graduated from college! It’s official as of June 14^th. Here are pictures to prove it.

So that day I got all ready and went to school to see my friends, walk across a stage, get a scarf, a piece of paper, had lunch, hung out, and went to see Super 8. As happy as I am to be done school, I wish to be going back to school in September. One thing I’m going to miss the most is my full year bus pass; back to bus tickets for me! Another thing I’m going to miss is the environment/atmosphere of school; just being around people, seeing my friends every day, having an agenda. It’s also weird to think that after so many years of school that I’m done now and my next bench mark in life is to work. But as a young adult the world is my oyster and I have so many opportunities and things I get to experience now without having to worry about missing school. Cool right? I’ll talk more about that in a bit.

So, I took up long boarding awhile back and I finally got my own board! WOO! Picture to prove it.

I’m still a n00b but I’m getting a bit better at it. I can get going but I still have problems just going straight and staying on the board…haha. I’ve only fallen once and haven’t hurt myself yet so that is good! I’m still to get use to going fast, making turns and not jumping off the board when I get a little scared. Other than that, boarding is going well!

VIDEO GAMES! I’m so excited for so many video games to come out. MW3 (November 8^th) [I’m thinking about getting 1 and 2 to play], Battlefield 3 (October 25^th), and Gears of War 3(September 20^th)!

Those are the three games I’m excited over. Mass Effect 3 is coming out but I can’t even get pass the 1^st one and I’m just not feeling it at all so I gave up on that. I know I’m terrible for not liking Mass Effect. Also gave up on Halo Reach…just couldn’t do it either. I keep failing at life. I’m thinking about trying Crysis 2 and some other games possibly; any FPS really. Those game will consume me for a couple days in those months.

Work has been the same other than me picking up a few more shifts. I now work on Sunday, Monday, Wednesday, and Saturday. I sometimes even work those lame overlap shifts for 4 hours. A job is a job but man I can’t wait to find a new job. Sure it’s an easy job and some of the people are nice but it’s a lame job. I’m looking to hopefully get a job when August comes around (when they start hiring part/full time staff for the school season). So wish me luck on that one!

My friends have definitely dwindled down to a select few it seems. Ever since college (and photography), I haven’t really seen my high school friends lately and I miss them a whole ton. The people I use to see every day in high school and have lunch with, and the group of friends I use to invite to everything; I miss them so much. Don’t get me wrong, I love the friends I have now too but I definitely miss my old ones. I miss them because they got my humour and didn’t really mind my crude sense of humour and in fact, they enjoyed it and laughed along with me. I hope to see them soon. All of them and a little high school get together.

This vacation in January may be one of the most exciting ones yet… Well I don’t really vacation but this has always been something I thought about. I might be going to Hong Kong sometime in January 2012 and I’m SUPER excited. The times I remember (which is age 7 and age 19) of going to Hong Kong was during the summer and it’s so hot and gross. Then I see videos/pictures of Hong Kong during New Years and Chinese New Years and it is BEAUTIFUL. Another awesome reason to go during winter is because well…I will get to wear shoes, jeans, sweaters, and even a coat! But not be overly cold which will be awesome. I’m looking at anything from 0ºC to 20ºC! How awesome is that? No more of this crazy -20ºC. Of course, there will be cold fronts and stuff but oh boy will it be fun to be there. Also while I’m there I will be attending a wedding which will be exciting. Hopefully I’ll be able to stay there for at least a full month.

What about finding a job? Well I actually thought about going to other countries (such as Hong Kong) to teach English. The only downside and the thing that will make it hard for me to get a job is that I don’t have a university degree in some kind of English literature. I don’t even think my college diploma/certificate will get me in. But this is definitely something I’ve thought about. I have a friend that has been in Korea for the past two years teaching grade 5 kids English and he has enough money to pay off Student Loans AND spend. If not then I do want to try getting a job somewhere else and NOT at Shell.

Something I’ve been talking about with my brother and mother is how different life would be if we didn’t come to Canada, if I wasn’t born, if I was lost at the mall, if I went to school in Hong Kong, and lots more. It’s weird to know that my life could have been completely different if I didn’t come to Canada. Would I still be who I am today? Course not, what happens in my life shapes who I am today. How different would I be? What if I lived in Hong Kong for awhile and then came here at an older age? So many questions and how different my life would be. Is there anything in your life that impacted you so much to who you are today? I am a 21 year old girl that is fluent in English, speaks Cantonese, has my lip pierced, ears stretched, went to college, third most educated in my entire family, just so much stuff makes my life different compared to what it would be like in Hong Kong and I just can’t stop thinking about the possibilities; they’re endless.

Mike…Michael. I really screwed this one up. He was a good friend to me and I was off in my own world, being selfish and trying to protect myself and not caring about him like I should. I remember when he meant the world to me and how I couldn’t go a day without talking to him and now it’s been over a month I’m sure. I’ve always wonder why he didn’t share things with me and I think I know why now…I was never really “there”. Sure, I was sitting there, typing away to him but I’m usually never the first one to say hi. I use to, not anymore.  I remember telling him that I was completely ready to lose him as a friend and I am because I brought it onto myself but I do miss him dearly. What happened? Being such amazing friends, falling head over heels, becoming insanely jealous, try to brush it off as nothing, finally becoming over it, and not caring. I feel that is how I am with some of my friends; I’m not good with staying in touch with them. Beside the point, I really do miss Mike. I use to check his blog frequently to see what he’s been up to and then reading some of his LiveProfile status. I’m happy for him and everything he has. He’s worked hard to be where he is today and I’m proud to say he use to be a friend of mine and deep down still is, even if we don’t talk anymore. Michael, if you’re reading this, I’m sorry for everything I’ve done. I’m not asking for forgiveness or for us to even be friends. I just want you to know that I’m happy for you and hope the best for you.

Well that was a long blog.

Thanks

-Allison

Call It Off by Tegan and Sara

This song is pretty close to how I feel right about now.

I won't regret saying this
This thing that I'm saying
Is it better than keeping my mouth shut
That goes without saying

Call, break it off
Call, break my own heart
Maybe I would have been something you'd be good at
Maybe you would have been something I'd be good at
But now we'll never know

I won't be sad
But in case I go there
Everyday, to make myself feel bad
There's a chance that I'll start to wonder if this was the thing to do

I won't be out long
But I still think it better if
You take your time coming over here
I think that's for the best

Call, break it off
Call, break my own heart
Maybe I would have been something you'd be good at
Maybe you would have been something I'd be good at
But now we'll never know

I won't be sad
But in case I go there
Everyday, to make myself feel bad
There's a chance that I'll start to wonder if this was the thing to do
I'll start to wonder if this was the thing to do

Thanks.

-Allison

Post No. 37 : Envious

Good morning, it’s…. 9:03am. Gaah. I want to sleep more but my brain won’t let me, so I’ll just blog about something.

I want to blog about a friend of mine who I am definitely envious about; Mike. Yeah I know, I’ve talked about him enough in my blogs but he is someone I’m definitely envious of. He’s 24 going on 25 and he’s got it going on. He has a fiancée (getting married soon enough), a kid, a house, a job, and pretty successful I would like to think. Despite the situation, he is where he is because of connections but is staying there because he has got what it takes to be in his position of work. He thinks that too and I’m so proud of him. From when I first met him to this day, he’s definitely matured, grown up to be an amazing guy. Well when I first met him, he was already pretty amazing or I definitely wouldn’t have fallen head over heels for him. But he’s different; stronger, always been independent, just…good. I’m just envious where he is at his life and only being 24.

I’m 21 and I feel like I’m way behind. Sure, I’m still young and have plenty of time to grow up but I had a “Plan”. The plan you make when you’re younger and don’t know better, ya, I liked my plan and was hoping it would fall through but it definitely isn’t going as planned…Anyways, the plan was to date for 3 years, engaged for 2, and have kids by 25. Is that too soon? I guess I should just plan for the getting engaged for 2 years (if I ever find a guy and date for 3 years or more…)  Anyways, I’m just comparing my life to his and he’s got it going on and well…I’m just where I am. Don’t get me wrong, I’m in a great place right now; 21, living at home, have a job, just graduated college, nothing to really worry about yet. But I do want to grow up soon.

I’m also envious of my other friends that are doing things on their own and taking care of themselves. I wish I had the finance for stuff like that or even a job that would provide me more hours to do stuff like that. I’m looking for a second job or a new job at that so I can work full time this year and hopefully go back to school in the Fall of 2012.

That’s all I got…I need to go get ready because I’m going out to lunch with some friends so..

Thanks.

-Allison

Post No. 36 : Start of my summer.

Well finally, it’s May 2^nd and this will definitely be the start of my summer for a long, adventurous summer! But here are some small things that have happened since my last post.

So for most of April, it was all about getting those final projects done; essay, movie poster, industrial shot, creative lighting, website, business plan, and my portfolio. Of course, I got everything done on time (even if it meant cramming for 9 hours in the library to finish a business plan for a 11:59pm deadline). Now what about those MAJOR projects? Well, my essay for my Photo Ethics and Issues, my essay was good enough that I got to present it to my class (the topic was about girls self esteem getting crushed due to excessive photoshopping). My business plan somehow got a pretty good mark even though there was a lot of missing parts. My website - thisisallisonwong photography - did very well even though there were definitely much better websites . And finally, my portfolio could have been a lot better so this summer I plan to build on my portfolio.

Other things that have happened, during the Photography Awards Banquet, I was nominated for Best Portrait with - Paint It White - along with 6 other amazing portraits. I’m glad I lost to Tyson because I really liked his portrait - Killer Instincts (First Photo) - And I did get a little certificate because of my photo along side of getting it put up on the wall! YEAH! I’ll definitely get a photo of that. My goal for this program is to graduate (of course) and get a photo of mine up on the wall so this has been a win-win kind of year. Non-Charlie-Sheen style.

This is my final year of school for now until 2012 where they will hopefully offer third year that I will definitely be a part of. I also might try to get a job as a “prof” in the program. I highly doubt that I will get the job but I damn well want to try. I think teaching Mac OS will be pretty fun since I just have to teach about using the Macbook and stuff; not hard right?

What does this summer bring me? Well, one of my best friends, Drew, has left London to go back to Windsor for a couple days, then off to Toronto, then off to Vancouver, then off to England! I might not see him for half a year but I damn will harass his Facebook, text him, and hopefully see his face on Skype sometime. I plan to shoot a lot more and just build my portfolio and make it stronger. I’m working with my godfather who is teaching me more and help me improve my skills my giving me small assignments to work on and giving me critique of what it is like to have your work shown in “the real world”. I will hopefully either get a better job or a second job this summer also. I hope to get more photography gigs. I hope to see my friends as often as possible to go hang out and just have a blast of a summer. I hope to find myself again and figure stuff out because with a year off, I’m not sure what I’m going to do with myself.

That’s all I got for now. Time to watch more development on the Federal election. I will hopefully write more soon.

Thanks.

-Allison

Post No. 35 : Inconsiderate People.

I’ve been super busy lately with school and I’ve been caught up in my work but it will be over soon and I’ll be FREE!

So, here is the problem. In our program we have a print competition where we submit four prints and compete against one another. The images are scored based on the technical aspect, presentation and so forth. I wanted to attend print comp and write down the marks for every print just for my information and see what the average was. This is just my curiosity and I wanted to do it. Later people found out what I was doing and they asked me to write down their marks and all that stuff and inform them on their mark. So I agreed to send this Excel file out to everyone so they could find out their mark earlier. I absolutely did NOT have to do it but instead of having 20 people messaging me at once asking for their marks, I sent it to everyone. I accidently sent it to last years group of photography students (2009-2010) instead of this years group (2010-2011) so all the second years got a second e-mail and the first years only got one. In the e-mail I wrote how I messed up and said that if anyone has problems, send me en e-mail and ask, no big deal.

Well I was informed that there was a couple of first years (and a few second years) bad mouthing me because of the e-mail. Saying why did I send to e-mails and so on and so forth. Someone said why did I write “bitches” in my e-mail blah blah blah. So I went back and looked at my e-mail. My e-mail was perfectly fine and very polite. It was ONE thing: When it came down to mine getting judged, I wrote a little dialogue on how my print came down to judging and I wrote

“60 vs 90 (Homer vs Petro) Petro loved it, Homer didn't get the paint, Hillier would of scored higher without paint, they all agreed no paint would be better) PETRO GAVE ME A 95! Bumped me up to an 82! BITCHES!”

Bitches…really? They took it seriously?! If anyone got a really good mark they would of said the same thing or something along the same line. I can’t believe how inconsiderate some people are. I did something nice for people and a lot of them said thank you and called me awesome and that’s great to hear. But to hear someone say bad things about me just angers me so much. Who the hell do they think they are? That’s nice that you also wrote down marks through the whole print comp but you did that because you volunteered to. I did this out of curiosity and on my own time. So what if I sent out to e-mails? You didn’t have to read the second one since you already had it. Anyone that said bad things about what I did can just go suck it.

Thanks.

-Allison

Post No. 34 : Reflection.

Okay, I think its time to talk about it. It’s been almost 2 weeks since I’ve talked to Mike at all. And I need to talk about it and reflect why I said what I did.

First of all, I know it was my fault. I should have never said those things to him and I shouldn’t have been such a bitch to him. I am a bad friend to him and if he chooses to never talk to me again, then I’m okay with that.

So, let’s start from the beginning:

I’ve always given Mike mix messages; telling him to be tough, getting over things, and not let things get to him so easily. I would then turn around and ask why he doesn’t talk to me about his emotions or anything to that matter. I guess I just wanted him to be able to monitor his emotions and stuff by himself but I feel that he shuts out a lot of “bad” things and puts on this act like nothing is wrong. I only tell him to toughen up because its hard to hear about a friend having a bad day or going through tough times because all I want to do is be able to change it all. I feel useless when I can’t do anything to change their mind. It gets overwhelming when I have multiple friends going through “tough times” and I’m having issues with my life. I want to put my friends first and I usually do but when it seems like nothing is going right, I just want to hear something good. I take it out on him a lot because he’s not someone I actually see or have to confront. I feel bad to say that but that is true and it is why it happens.

I told him before that I didn’t want to hear things about him being happy because this was when I was still very much in love with him in a very romantic way. ‘Til this day, I feel that he still feels hesitant to tell me about all the good things that happens with him and how he is very happy. I’m over it, I love him as a friend and deep down, he’ll always be a really good friend of mine. He’s trying to change, to be a better man, but I don’t think it’s overly healthy when he’s putting on this face, trying to be happy. I mean, it’s positive that he does that and remembers there are good things going on in life, but I think everyone needs to feel a little down once in a while. As crazy as it sounds, I think I might pick fights with him and act like a bitch to him because I need to feel down and have a good cry. Maybe I subconsciously do all this “hating” to lose the tension, the stress, and just everything. After that good cry, everything seems to be a lot better for me. I don’t know.

Back on track now; I was very rude to him the night we fought. I pushed him too far and I really shouldn’t have. I did because I feel that is the only way I’ll get a reaction out of him and for him to say what he really thinks. I feel awful for pushing him too far. I feel awful that I hurt him and didn’t even know or ask about it. I guess I really do take that he is a different person but he really isn’t all that different. He’s still human, gets hurt, and doesn’t say anything. To read in his blog that he was upset by my words and not just tell me really made me feel like a total asshole. Am I that hard to approach? I wish he would of just told me that I was being a bitch and was upset. I shouldn’t be so tough on him. I know I wouldn’t want a friend like me if I were that much of a bitch. I mean, I put up an act all the time with him. Yeah, I really do. I’m a tough guy around him. I share things but at the same time brush them off like its nothing (unless it has to do with school then everyone in the world knows how frustrated I am about that), but I take things lightly because I don’t want them to affect me because there are just some things in life that I believe shouldn’t be a big deal.

Okay, I’m rambling now and I’m tired.

Yes, I do regret things that I have said to him.

No, I won’t be forgiving myself any time soon.

Yes, I know it was my fault and will accept his decision to not be friends with me.

No, I will not be very happy with him out of my life.

Yes, I miss him dearly.

I guess judgment day comes on February 17^th. Why? Because it’s my birthday; if he still cares about me and wants to be friends with me still, he’ll (hopefully) say something to me then. [I am basing this off the time we got into a fight, didn’t talk for awhile, and it was his Birthday and I said something]

Now that I think about it, I totally forgot to say happy birthday to him (2010) and I still remember that and I still feel like a total asshole for letting it slip my mind.

Okay, it’s 11pm. I’m going to bed.

Thanks.

-Allison

Way to go, Allison.

January 29th, 2011. 7:08pm.
Mike Schaerer wants nothing to do with you.

How do you feel?

The Worst Feeling Ever.

Post No. 33 : My first ...

I wanted to start the new year off with something not so interesting. I got this idea from the Toronto Star and it was all about "My first..." so here is my random list of My First

My first words : My first words as a child was 'dad'. I think that says something about me because as I grew up, I was definitely daddy's little girl. But as I got older, I became mommy's little girl. haha.

My first plane ride : When I was 6 months old, my family and I immigrated from Hong Kong to Canada.

My first bus ride : This is lame. My first bus ride was in grade 11 when Kelsie and I skipped last period to go get our passport photos taken at Wal-Mart. I was DAMN excited to be on the bus. I now bus around everywhere when I can't get a ride.

My first crush : Okay, so from my memory, I think my first crush was in grade 3. Or at least grade 4. I'm only saying first names because...well, you know. And I know for a fact anyone from my elementary school reading this will know exactly who I'm talking about. In grade three, my first crush was Patrick. Yeah, him. Grade 3, it was Colby. That's that! MOVING A LONG!

My first kiss : Haha...okay, this is lame. My first REAL kiss (I am not including a kiss I did not want during prom....*vomits*) was with my friend Lucas. I'm not even going to go into details. moving along.

My first boyfriend : His name was Tyler. It was a long distance relationship...we met online. Don't even start with me! I had a crazy life between 12-16. It was really effed up. We 'dated' for 3.5 years. He 'cheated' on me 3 times. I still get reminded of him because of Weebls and sometimes I see pictures of him on his sister's Facebook.

My first pet : We got these two parakeets as free gifts. We had a blue one and a green one. The blue one was mine and I named him cookie monster. We had them for a couple years and the day they died, I was so sad. Worst part, my dad picked him up from his cage and tossed him in the garbage....

My frist job : Well to be honest, my first job is the job I have now. I didn't get a job until I was 19 years old. I work at a Shell Gas Station. It's not a bad job and I don't mind it but I think I could be doing a lot better. But as the Chinese saying goes "ride a cow before you find a horse" .... it sounds a lot better in Cantonese.

My first bully : I was never really 'bullied' in school. It was never anything super serious. I got made fun of by this one girl in elementary school. I had a nickname and I didn't want her calling me by it so by grade 3, I changed my name to Allison. My first real bully would have to be grade 8 when this girl, Jenny, threatened to kill me. Til this day, when I see her, I'm a little scared.

My first heart-break : My first heart break would probably be when Tyler and I 'broke up'. After 3.5 years, it was sad to part. Our relationship started going down hill by the 2nd year. I wanted things to work out but they didn't. After we 'broke up', I wanted to stay friends but that worked out because we would always get into fights.

My first pay cheque : I blew that one like .... well, you know. It was gone in a very short time. I don't think I really saved much money from my pay cheques since I would always be going out and junk. I'm sure I saved something because I still manage to go out and buy stuff and pay off my credit card.

My first sports team : When I was in elementary school, I joined the junior girls basketball team. I was horrible. I did get a little bit better but not so much. My offense was awful but my defense well...it was alright.

My first concert : For a big concert that involved a band that people actually knew was Sum41. Kelsie, Amanda, Taira, and I all went that day. We were on the floor and we were getting pushed around hardcore. It was my first show and it was very fun.

My first trip without my parents : I went to Europe for 10 days with the school. We went to Paris, Normandie, and London. It was a beautiful 10 days and I wish to be there still. It was an extraordinary experience! I would never expect my parents to just let me up and go. It was fantastic.

My first trip by myself : This was more recent. I went to Oakville by myself (by train) to hang out with Marcus and take photos of him for an assignment. It was a lot of fun and I hope to make that trip more.

My first party : This is the first party that I hosted. It was after I came back from Hong Kong with my brother and my parents were going to be there for another 3 weeks. I held a "No Pants Mustache Party" What is that? Well, you don't wear pants and you have a mustache. It was pretty awesome.

My first drink : It was my friend's version of a chocolate martini (Bailey's, vodka, and milk) An hour later, he got me to drink rye on the rocks. It was a lot of rye. I definitely vomited pretty hard afterwards. Everything came up and I drunk dialed Kelsie telling her about it.

My first camera : This camera was pretty awesome. It was a Sony M2. (FRONT and BACK) It was a great camera. My mom got it for me while she was in Hong Kong. It lasted for at least 4 years and it was fantastic. I had AWESOME self portraits...haha.

My first DSLR : a Nikon D300. It was great. I loved it. Yeah, past tense. If you know, you know. I now own a Nikon D300s and love it also. In memory of my first one (Diego) I proudly call my D300s Diego the Second.

My first piercing : My snake bites. Yeah, I didn't even have my ears pierced. 18 years old and I got my friends to pitch in money for me to get my lip pierced. I don't regret it (much) but my mom didn't talk to me for 2 days when I got them. It's a lot harder for me to find a job at the moment because of them. But I think they are great and suit me well.

My first alone time at the mall : This was a little weird for me because I'm use to going to the mall with at least one other person. I went by myself this time and actually walked around, looked at stuff, bought stuff, ran some errands and such. It was really relaxing because I could do whatever I want. It was lame because I had no one to talk to or tell them about stuff (I resort to texting).

My first iPod : I rocked a iPod Mini 1st Gen. I got it for christmas when I was in grade 9 (thanks Philip, my godfather) and it was a 4gb PINK iPod Mini. It was the coolest thing ever. It lasted me for four years. After 2 battery changes, I retired it and got a iPod Touch 1st Gen. I now own a iPod Touch 3rd Gen.

My first cellphone : A Ericsson (Yes, just Ericsson) T28. I had limited use of this phone back then and wasn't under my name. Even my second phone, Nokia 6101, wasn't under my name. My cellphone now is under my name is a Sony Ericsson T715a. After less than a years use, I want a new phone because I've done some serious damage to it.

My first period : How intimate. Let's just say I was very young and didn't know what a period even was. I was very embarassed by it and didn't even tell my mom until I ran out of underwear....Let's just say I kept it a secret for a long time.

My first failing grade : This was just so funny. It was grade 11 university math. The teacher was so.... bland/monotone and really hard on everyone. If you didn't understand it, there was really no other way he could explain it and he doesn't understand why you don't get it. I failed that class with 40% and took the university/college math in summer school.

My first friend : Okay, this is from the lame memory. I know for a fact that I didn't really start making friends til I was in kindergarten. Kelsie and Jessie were the ones I played with the most when I was younger. We remained friends til grade 1. Kelsie and Jessie continue to have class with one another but I did not. It wasn't until grade 6 when I for sure became a 'popular kid' and Jessie was in my class so she came along. In grade 8, Kelsie and I rekindled our relationship and are best friends now.

My first online chat : Other than having msn, I went further from that; MSN Chatrooms. Those were the bomb! People use to create chatrooms where they were "pool parties" and stuff like that and you'd talk to some weird people and say some weird things... Best time ever!

My first important online friend : I'm pretty sure he wanted me to write something lame like this (I'm half kidding. I actually like this one). Mike, you're important to me. Last person I met online. You know why? Because after meeting you, I didn't want to meet other people because you're awesome, amazing, fabulous, fantastic, superb, and more nice adjectives inserted. Oh, and because you're hot. Not going to lie. I have so many good memories with you and I wouldn't give them up ever....EVER! Now stop reading this. Stupid.

Okay! That's it for MY FIRST. If you have anything else you want to know, leave a comment. If you want to see more of a daily life of me, check out my Tumblr. Photography is at deviantART. And stalk me on Facebook.

Thanks.

-Allison

Post No. 32 : New Years Eve.

Alrighty, so I need to write something for December so this is my post for it. I'm coming up with New Years Resolutions again and hope to follow through with them way better than last time. Let's talk about those actually.

The link to that blog is HERE so go read it if you want. I definitely did not write in my blog enough, I stayed focus in school and managed to finished second semester with pretty decent grades, I made my portfolio for the semester but it still needs more meat to it, I like to think my attitude towards my parents have gotten better (sometimes, I still get angry and what not but I forgive a lot quicker ... haha), saving up money lasted for awhile but I've definitely spent a lot more, I uploaded 49 photos onto deviantART for 2010, I definitely made my life more eventful with the summer of constantly going out to Victoria Park and hanging out with my friends then this winter going ice skating for the first time in almost 6 years, and of course, being myself has been good.

I made a lot of new friends throughout the year and learned a lot more and have been improving in school. It's just been a good year.

Alright, now for the NEW resolutions!

Number 1: Write in my blog more often. Yeah, this one is a repeat because it really does need to happen more often. I don't write in here much because I don't have anything personal that needs to be said. I want this to be a "Inside Allison's Thought" kind of deal, not just everyday. (If you want more everyday stuff, find me on tumblr HERE)

Number 2: Graduate. Yes, this is a short term thing but I am in my second year now and I graduate in April. I hope to graduate with my glass because I am still missing 60 hours of co-op (with or related to photography). This is the only thing that is stopping me from finishing/graduating.

Number 3: Buy less, save more. This has to do with money in general. Since the holidays, I've spent way too much money. I spend way too much money in general (especially online). I need to watch what I spend and how I'm spending. Buy only things that are essential and important, no more luxury items (maybe once in a while...like once every couple months).

Number 4: Work on portfolio. Yeah, I have stuff for my portfolio but I want to work on more personal work and really get my "style" going in my portfolio. I want something that is more me and something that I actually like and not just assignments.

Number 5: Photograph more often. I don't go out enough to just photograph things for fun. I always feel like I have to have a reason to go out. Even though I'll look weird walking around with a camera and tripod, at least I'll be getting photos I like and build my portfolio.

Number 6: Read more. I have a giant stack of unread books on my shelf and they need to be read. I really do enjoy a good book but I just get lazy to be honest. I have a book sitting next to my bed now and I haven't picked it up in a long time. I should finish it.

Number 7: Know more about the world. This really means watching the news more, reading the paper, stuff like that. As a 20 year old, I don't know a lot about the world and I wish to know more.

Number 8: Finish 'Got A Stache?'. This is a project I am doing for myself. Taking pictures of 100 different men and their facial hair. I'm at 37 men so...this should be good!


Number 9: Have an eventful year. Yes, another repeat because I think stuff like this is important. I want to travel/roadtrip with my friends, go out more to different places, try new things, have fun!

Number 10: Be myself. This is also important in my book (and self explanatory).

Well I hope everyone else has an amazing New Year in 2011. I hope it brings everyone laughter, joy, and love.

Thanks.

-Allison