Post No. 13 : Difference in my life, only in the past 5 days

Holy heck, it’s only been 5 days and I know all the little things that bug me or just get to me and what little thing I value about Canada.

All the little things like just people being everywhere at all times! Like what the heck! There are way too many people in one area for anyone’s good! As much as I love being out and about around people, there are WAY too many people here. Next, I really don’t like being so close with family, I miss my privacy. Also having someone around me at all time is pathetic, I effing hate it. Even as I type, I have two aunts sitting next to me seems like their looking over my shoulder talking about how fast I type and what kind of typing I do – as in do I type proper English or do I type as if I was just talking to any regular ol’ joe – I had to explain to them that I was just typing up a journal. Even if I wasn’t typing just a regular journal, this would STILL be considered proper English with a twist of my own writing if you catch my drift. I absolutely hate not being alone. There is no privacy around here since I’m always with family and now I can honestly say, I love Canada much more since we are the only family there and we never have to see family. Honestly.

Don’t get me wrong though, I love my family and how wonderful it is but I just can’t stand the constant need to be around family ALL THE TIME. I’m use to being alone; My mom and dad are at work almost 90% of the time and I don’t see them and even if they are home. But now, to be around someone 99% of my day, fuck! I just want to dig a hole somewhere and hide from everyone. Oh wait, that’s pretty much impossible. Maybe I wouldn’t be this way if I lived with family all the time. Always being alone is something I enjoy. Ah, I don’t know anymore. It’s just something that’s bothering me and I get to live with it for another 47 days. Let’s just hope I survive.

Thanks.

-Allison

Post No. 12 : Experiencing the life I never had and a lot more.

Tomorrow is the big day, the day I go on my vacation to Hong Kong. My brother and I were talking one day and he says that "immigrating to Canada is the biggest change in our lives and if that never happened, things would be beyond different" [maybe not those exact words but you get the idea] and I thought "Hey, that's very true. Wow, going to Hong Kong for this long, I'll be living the life I've never had" and it's very true. So this whole trip, I'm going to be thinking about how my life will be different and appreciate the things I have now in life and appreciate what has made me who I am today.

Before leaving, I've also stressed on how much I'm going to miss the simple things in life. Having this house that I have, having my own room, decent size bathroom, a lot of little things. I'm going to miss a lot of that. My friends, just being able to call and hang out is totally awesome. But at the same time I know I'll be back shortly and things will be back to quote unquote normal.

That's all I really have to say. The past week I've been hanging out with friends and just being with them before I leave means a lot. Shows they care or just shows that have nothing better to do so they'll just hang out with me. Haha. I hope not. Either way, I'm going to miss everyone and every little thing imaginable.

Thank goodness I'll have internet while I'm there so I can constantly talk to my friends. Next time I blog will be from HONG KONG.

Oh, P.S. just in case I haven't mention this already, I made another blog just for my summer vacation details so this is the link [http://allisonwong-summervacation.blogspot.com]

Thanks.

-Allison

Post No. 11 : Living in a good situation.

Whoa! It’s been awhile since I wrote something meaningful. Haha.

There’s only 12 more days until I leave and I think when the day comes, I’ll be ready to up and go and leave my quote unquote life behind for a bit and really experience the life I’ve never had: In Hong Kong, where I was born. I was very bitter about leaving at first because I really didn’t want to go leaving all my friends behind but last week or two, I’ve grown to discover who I’ve always been. I’ve learned to let go of the past, learned to experience the present, and look forward to the future. What happened in the past has tweaked little bits of me to make who I am now and I’ll cherish that, good or bad. I’ve learned to live day by day and really have fun with it and not worry so much with what people may think of me but do what feels right because people will see that I’m being my true self. I’m excited to see what the future may bring me; my hangout with friends, my trip, my education, my life. It’s very exciting to be happy with my situation right now. Yeah yeah, I’m a tad bitter with certain things but that’ll be brushed off soon enough, what happened has happened and I’m better off I’ll say. I've also learned that I really am a good person, I do have good intentions with things and I know when I need to be selfish to protect myself and see things in my good interest. I can't always put everyone else in front of me, and sometimes it's more important that I'm happy. I know it sounds bad saying it this way but don't get me wrong, I'll always be considerate to everyone's feelings and never have it "all be about me." I think I've found a good balance between these two things and it should work out benefiting me and the ones close to me.

Recently (Sunday, May 3rd), I got together with some friends and had a picnic. It was so much fun because everyone there had a good time! That’s very important to me. We just all chilled, we all chatted, we talked about whatever came to mind, we just went along with what happened and just said “hey, lets go do this? OKAY!” Until it came to dinner at Pizza Hut when we couldn’t decide what to get and who would be paying (took at least 15 minutes to figure it all out). It really was an overall good time. I really wish I could just keep going back to that day where we did whatever we felt like and having a vague idea of what would happen next. It was great. This picnic really got me to see that I need to live life by the moment and not be so planned out with everything I do. Picnic was a great success even though some of my closer friends didn’t show up, I forgive them and hopefully I’ll see them before I leave.

This picnic also got me to see how such different people can come together and have such an amazing time. I mean, there were a couple of us that would be obvious we’d hang out but our personalities and what not just all clicked. Not at one point was it like “Oh god...why is this person here? They are so annoying” NOT AT ALL! I guess it’s our personality of being laid back and accepting people as they come and giving them a chance to impress us. Haha. One friend that was there wasn’t totally convinced on coming because he wasn’t exactly comfortable with meeting new people but he was so happy he did because he was himself the whole time and had a blast. The way you act towards a person and what you say to them can really change their outcome on a lot of things.

Ah, I really don’t know where I’m going with this blog but all I have to say is life is getting better as each day goes by and that’s a good sign.

Oh right, maybe I could tell you about my school situation haha. Well the year has been officially over on the 23rd and I had two exams on the 30th and everything did get done and I'm happy with the results. With a 4.04 GPA, how can I NOT be happy. Four A's and one A+. And next year, PHOTOGRAPHY. Speaking of photography, I still need to go over to Henry's and see what sweet deal I can talk them into for my soon to be Nikon D300.

Thanks.

-Allison